i was in a wedding yesterday. a lot of people went. most i do not know. all the while i could not stop wishing you were also here - praying our well-wishes and hopes for a meaningful life together. i am referring not only to the newly-weds but also to the possibility that we do find that opportunity, in celebration, to express our humble vows. then, it must only be a slim hope to carry, with the slimness that ever goes slimmer as each day passes - unsure and unknowing whether it should really be.

there were also children. and it feels like time has left us behind. 

months have passed since i last saw you. it could be a few days to months more before you see me again. if there is at all any chance for me, i must have surrendered it the moment i allowed myself with too much preoccupations.

i do hope that in one way or another, we find ourselves again.