maybe it had become part of my unconscious effort to build some sort of a plan for 2009, could be a wish list, not much of a resolution, but more about the what needs to be done... or better, what i want done for 2009... primarily due to the fact that years pass by with an unseamless feeling of "i could have done more" or "i dilly-dallied too long", we are not getting any younger, and growing older demands that life be lived with less regrets, rearranging the mindset from working with "no mistakes" to living "more discoveries" and "more learnings and experiences".
part of this list is to renew my quality time with a lot of facets of my life, which include the others that make me the i that i am.
a seemed to have realized this while spending a few minutes, lying on an old stone bench, while allowing himself to be engulfed by the vastness of the night above him. it was a simple plan... for him to renew quality time, and in that discover the significance of the selves and the others, the solitude and the connections, the steps forward and the learnings of the past.
start with the bookshelves. learn to find himself while immersed with the birthing text.
start with his solitude. look inside himself and find relevant meanings for his way onwards.
start with his sadness, his happiness, connections and relationships, love and a woman.