i have been clinging on to what i might have thought there is but i never was really able to fill it, nourish it, cherish it fully to what should have been. i still dare to cling on, afraid however to give in and now i find myself taken aback to losing the feeling of you. the distance and the time has unraveled both possibilities and mere illusions and dreams.
the clouds have scattered into a multitude of forms. we've seen what we have always wanted to personally see and in that vast distance of the sky, trudged along differing and uncrossing paths.
it must be time telling me to free myself of this seeming illusion. it must be distance consigning me to let go of myself, and finally accept losing - losing myself and losing you.
overweening personal ambition is no virtue; but while i had it, i could have danced on a bed of nails. -joyce maynard-