where goes, what waits


with a toasted yolk,
i am a sunny sideup
of a brain too fried.

worries in non-sleeping

that none is required
to appease a heated pot
who hides in chaos.

chosen by light

over s

of just a slight hour
recovering, i push on
for sleepless hours more.

ant town

unwrite me

i seem to suffer
as days add to more days
for a loss of words.


a motor fan whizzes,
scattering bits and pieces over
a pale head dreaming.

hills of carmen

near harvest


insect anonymous

i never got to know the name (local name, general name, scientific name) of this insect from guindulman, bohol. a piece is as big as a fist.


80's pinoy thriller

ano ang nasa dako paroon
bunga ng malikot na pagiisip
likha ng balintataw o halaw sa isang daigdig ng kababalaghan
di kayang maipaliwanag ngunit alam mong magaganap...

while seeing a recent filipino horror flick play in cinema one, i suddenly remembered pinoy thriller way back in the 80s. good effective scares from childhood. who could ever forget the halimaw hiding behind the curtains of an attic window. impakto. impaktita. manika. then there's also regal shocker. saan kaya pwede makapanood ng episodes ng mga ito ulit?


giant toog in makiling

petersianthus quadrialatus (merr.) merr. lecythidaceae

considered a university of the philippines los banos heritage tree, toog is one of the most majestic, most towering and largest indigenous tree species in the philippines having attained a trunk diameter of 340cm and height of 65m in its native habitat in San Francisco, Agusan del Sur.

these toog trees were planted in the forestry campus of up los banos as part of the ongoing reforestation and conservation program of the up college of forestry in mt. makiling forest reserve. (uplb heritage tree committee)


lost in plans (then come lund)

i have been making and remaking a lot of plans in life, be they be work-related ones, long term career, or even minor plans for a long weekend, for a next solo trip away to the unfamiliar, or even more personal ones related to finding my right one and/or settling down. just this late afternoon, G buzzed me about the first round of release of notification of admission under studera. i checked and realized that another one (which i have started planning since last year, which i suspended since january in view of the interim period for university deliberations of requirements and qualifications, and which i thought i will only be able to get back to again after another week) will have to be integrated, finally but immediately, into the further making and remaking of plans for this year and possibly the two years to come.

which, after much thought, will suspend and prolong ideas of settling down with my right one. which also calls for a lot of contemplating about opportunities i may have to give up, and challenges i have to newly absorb.

lund came from a notification by studera that i have been admitted for a 2year masters programme in international human rights law. i still await for a direct correspondence from the university itself, but as it is, the ball has started rolling and with this new opportunity at hand, i have to move on with the preparations while thinking hard about more convoluted plans.

this did not make me cry. but there was this feeling, upon seeing the word ADMITTED in the studera letter notification, that something inside had opened, sending a thousand- and more swan origamis fly away... for a long moment, then only to be replaced by a boulder of frog eggs origamis, upon realizing that a lot more has to be done.

for now i will relish the swan origamis fly high, on them written prayers to reach god.